Hmph.

I have always hated my hair. Regardless of having had those few blissful good hair days now and again, I really hate my hair. It makes me a lunatic. It really does. I can go completely psychotic over it. I have not curly hair, not wavy, but wurly hair. The underneath part is ringlets. The top is straight. Somewhere in the middle is the wavy. It's super thick. I think my hair guy said something to the effect of "wooly" last time I was in to see him. He has a flesh colored yamaka on the top of his head and he has the nerve to call mine wooly?!? Anyway, the last time he cut my hair he sabatoged me. I'm sure of it. He cut layers, which is supposed to make it not so poofy and make it lay right. I'm thankful for not having a triangle head because of this procedure, but I'm not thankful that the layers now at the top of my head are still the same thickness as they were before and the very bottom layers are much thinner. I hate layers. Why do I ALWAYS let people talk me into layers. When I take the usual hour to try to straighten my hair so that I look like a normal human being rather than a Q-tip, it doesn't look right because there are layers. When I try to do it curly, the top goes straight and wirey and the bottom does it's loopty loops. I'm convinced that it's even thicker and wirey-er than it was before I got pregnant with Erin. Don't get me wrong, I'd go bald for that baby, but come on, is it not enough that our hips are in a different place, I carry a doughnut around my waist that can't be sucked in, none of my clothes fit like I want them to and all of the other neat-o side effects of having a baby happen?!? Especially a second baby. I'll grow my hair out and see what happens. Maybe in a year the hair that I had before that I didn't hate SO much will come back. Maybe I'll start sprouting thicker hair, like Betty Spaghetti. And don't get me started on the gray hair. I guess there just comes a point when we have to work harder at looking or feeling like we look cute. Obviously that happens when we hit our 30's. So I'm off to buy hair products and see what happens tomorrow. I've got to figure this out before I'm in my 40's. That may not be possible.